This Is Why I Graduated…
A Nigga can’t be happy.
In high school, you’re supposed to feel like you’re home, like everybody is your family, like there’s a reason why you’re there. Fuck ALL of That!
High school is supposed to teach you how to be an adult, how to be responsible, how to make the right decisions that move you forward in life, how to solve problems. Fuck ALL of That!
High school is a goddamn prison. How many times you heard That shit before? Idgaf, here it again!
When I was in there, I felt like I was trapped in a bubble. This bubble was full of fake ass people, niggas that think they the shit, stuck-up bitches, freeloaders, UNreal relationships, dishonestly, sexually confused muthafuckas, tears, sadness, conflict, immaturity, lies, dumb ass people, games, bullshit, dickeaters, wannabes, unhelpful ass adults, pointless rules & regulations………….just a whole lot of Shit!
Some of yall prolly think the shit I’m about to talk about in particular is really nothing, but when I explain it you will see that it is definitely deeper than what your simple-minded ass may think. Today was a perfect example…
Its Valentine’s Day! =) Happy day, see the wife, give her gifts, make her happy, that’s all that matters. Shit sound simple, but I just don’t understand why such a fucked up dumb ass place like School of the Future gotta mess up even SIMPLE, SIMPLE fucking plans. I got her a big ass teddy bear cuz she loves bears & this necklace with a blue diamond on it cuz she loves the color blue. Didn’t stay like I normally do cuz she was doing shit & I had stuff to do too……..hmmm, maybe I should’ve stayed.
I come back because I gotta teach a class, HOW THE FUCK SOMEBODY STEAL THE NECKLACE?!? Idec How, WHYYY The fuck did somebody do it?!? I’m hearing all types of shit like “Its jealousy”…….”She mustve turned her head”…….”Somebody wanted it”…….All that shit is dumb obvious. I’m more interested in WHHYYY!? Not HOW, idgaf HOW. WHY did it happen?? Its not a “Why” where as tho I’m like “Why would somebody do this to me?” Its a “Why” in which I’m asking “Why the fuck is this nut ass typical high school shit happening to ME & I don’t even fucking go here no more??” NIGGAS DON’T EVEN FUCKIN STEAL IN COLLEGE!!! I lost my whole bag one day, laptop, camcorder, phone & ipod chargers, paycheck, ALL that was in there. I’m snappin n shit, then I just say fuck it & go to Lost & Found. I found my bag there with ALL my shit in it. So either My college is full of nice people, or its just a more mature environment. Either way, it ain’t SHIT like pissy ass high school.
Like I said, u would prolly think I’m making it a bigger deal than what it is. Excuuseee ME for being deep! That shit says A LOT more than a little. When that happened I just felt like I was right back in high school. So once again, even tho I’m just there for basically “visiting”, I STILL feel like I’m a part of the whole experience all over again.
That’s not even all that fucked me up today. Some even more simple shit happened around the time I brought that stuff there. I’m in the office chillin & then yungbuls Tahir & John come in & come around to shake my hand n shit whatever, but when this nigga Tahir said “Lemme see ya hat”, I’m instantly in my mind like “u gotta be shittin me -_____- THIS shit again?” Let me explain. Then of course the question was gonna come “I need a hat like that. Where’d you get that hat from?” & then here come dickeating John answering the question for me before a word even come to my lip talking about some “Urban….Urban…….Urban.” Me - “Not even Urban. You can find these pretty much any…………..” John cutting off “at Urban………..” I didn’t even say nothing…..Then the follow up question from Tahir “How much did it cost?” & once again, before I even speak, dickeating John goes “12……….12……….12………”
I’m like “Really tho? We’re at This shit again???”………….First assumption from this nigga is that I got my hat from Urban Outfitters & that it costed $12. WRONG, DICKHEAD! That’s that youngbul shit. This is the shit I dealt with for the loooongest while I was in high school, niggas Always got some shit to say about how I dress or where I get my shit from when they have No Idea Whatsoever about it, thinking that they do. Like last year, people ALWAYS assumed I got EVERYTHING from H&M. WRONG! Understand this: I buy a cardigan, a jacket, a hat, a scarf from H&M. ALL this stuff is OUTERWEAR. So therefore being that its Outerwear, its the most Outer layer of clothing I have on, & being its the most Outer part, its the FIRST thing you see……so therefore, with These items alone, a youngbul would assume I get EVERYTHING from H&M, just because the Easiest shit they see is from H&M. Now in the summer of 2010 from the middle of July to the end of August, I did do a little work at the H&M downtown….so Of Course ima get Some shit from there, but H&M is not even my favorite clothing store - ONE of them, but definitely Not my most favorite.
People just thought they knew me when they really didn’t. One thing I learned: When You’re aged 14-17, even 18 in Some cases, you just think you know it all when you Really don’t. Also, when you’re aged 14-17, even 18 in Most cases, you can’t admit when you’re Wrong because you don’t like to be wrong, so even when you know you’re dead wrong, you’re gonna hold on to what You believe or what You feel…that includes cutting people off when they explain shit, not even letting them get a word in edgewise, or leaving the scene like you made a point, even tho you know deep inside you really didn’t. This is just that typical high school shit.
Me, I Have To come back to my old school for 2 reasons only: I, against my will, run an afterschool program that I get paid for. The other reason, I gotta see my gf. As far as the afterschool thing, I can’t do nothing about that. That’s all part of my studio internship. As far as gf, plain & simple, I’m in college while she’s still in high school I Have To come see her, & can’t see her no other way. If you’re in a situation like me, you understand that if you don’t see your gf, she won’t be happy. If she ain’t happy seeing, hugging & kissing you, she’s gonna be happy seeing, hugging & kissing somebody else who of course goes to that school. Shit happens.
Every time I come there, the only thing I see is the reason why I always wanted to burn that place down. That bubble. Just a visit is guaranteed to fuck up your entire day. For me, a simple visit makes me feel like I’m just back in prison, I feel a part of it all over again, opposed to college, at The Art Institute of Philadelphia, where I feel like I got sooooooo much space to just relax & breathe, & Everybody is just grown up, mature, Real, Cool, not shit like high school. This is why I can’t wait for my gf to get out & just be a part of that vibe, & get out of prison. I know it will make her a completely different person & change her whole perspective on life & also make her more happy. I know because it has for ME.
As for Future, I hope Everybody in that bitch that’s following me on tumblr reads this shit. Each & every one of y’all are the most deceitful, unreal, dirtiest, gayest, dykest, ugliest, most ignorant, less fortunate, immature, thirsty, hurtful, disrespectful, senseless, careless, heartless, cheapest, most ghetto, loudest, dumbest, most fake, harshest, most rude, lying ass, punk ass, bitch ass bunch of individuals I have EVER met in my entire life. SHOUTOUTS to all the individuals who this Does Not describe, but I’ll be the judge of whether or not that’s really true. & SHOUTOUTS to the road to college that made me different.
Clearly I’m pissed & disgusted & also heartbroken, & like I said before, excuuuuse ME for being deep. Excuuuuse ME for seeing the bigger picture in the smallest things. Excuuuuse ME for being different. Excuuuuuseee ME for calling it how I see it. But FUUUCKK YOOOUUU!!! That is all.
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tortilaachip said:
That was reallllly deep , and I reallllly respect your opinion about high school . Trust me I’m living in that world right now …I may not be able to completely relate , but I know that being in college gives you a whooolle new perspective on things & the way people act….
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